I finally get a day off, and what happens? I'm nauseous for most of the day, until I actually do puke up a storm. What caused it? NO FRIGGEN CLUE.
I guess no drinky-fun for me tomorrow. Damn it all.
Friday, October 31, 2008
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Updates!
1- Omg, my store manager called my name over the store intercom, asking me to come to the back office. DUH DUUH DUUUUUHHHHHHH, the dramatic confrontation! She simply asked me "Why do I feel all of this negativity from you, you won't even look at me." I simply told her "You think I'm lying about my fathering being in the hopsital, and that I'm playing hookey with my boyfriend instead." I think she felt like she was in a hot-spot, so she immediately asked who told me that. Of course I can't break confidentiality with anyone I've talked with, so I had to back up and say it was a feeling I had. So she had the chance to lecture me on that. HOWEVER, I -did- call her out on me calling me "dead weight", and ooohhh MAN she came with every FRIGGEN EXCUSE IN THE BOOK! She then had the nerve to almost FORCE ME to accept her apology. "I'm sorry, and I -REALLY WANT TO YOU ACCEPT IT." Too bad for her, when she was staring me down after making that comment, I just sat there and stayed silent. Muhahahaha! BITCH. I was able to even get in that after saying she called me dead weight that "You have no right to talk to an employee like that, EVER." She kept saying there was no excuse, and THEN she would come up with like 10 different excuses. I don't give her any pity, she should realize why her employee turn-over rate is sooo friggen high. Oh well, I felt pretty good when I told her...
2- I GOT HIRED AT BATH AND BODY WORKS! Muhahahahaa! Even though I almost had it screwed over for me, I got the seasonal job, woohoo! I went in for an orientation day (which was pretty fun), and had my first day of training today. I will admit, I never worked such a WEIRD register before, but it was still a pretty nice day :D Whats great too is that I was available for a lot of extra days for B&B, since Pier 1 was screwin me on hours. Wish me luck with the holiday season, cause I'll be at both Pier 1 and B&B on black friday, WHILE still doing all the madness shopping!
2- I GOT HIRED AT BATH AND BODY WORKS! Muhahahahaa! Even though I almost had it screwed over for me, I got the seasonal job, woohoo! I went in for an orientation day (which was pretty fun), and had my first day of training today. I will admit, I never worked such a WEIRD register before, but it was still a pretty nice day :D Whats great too is that I was available for a lot of extra days for B&B, since Pier 1 was screwin me on hours. Wish me luck with the holiday season, cause I'll be at both Pier 1 and B&B on black friday, WHILE still doing all the madness shopping!
Saturday, October 25, 2008
TT-TT
I'm getting sick from stress and depression. Just thinking of how I'm not going to get that seasonal job I wanted makes me sick to my stomach. Money is soo tight right now, and it scares me when I can't provide for myself. I'm also trying to save for Japan, but how can I do that if I can't take care of whats on my plate right now?
How am I suppose to do all of this?! UGH!
Stick a fork in me, I'm done.
How am I suppose to do all of this?! UGH!
Stick a fork in me, I'm done.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
Another downer story; When will things go up?
So as everyone knows, I hate the world of retail. Being a college graduate and all, I would think that I have more potential than to be begging for hours at a retail store. Now I have even more reason to hate it though: my store manager.
1- I'm used to working an 8 hour shift, no biggy. However, on Wednesday I'm at the end of my shift, after doing a LOT of moving and construction (preparing for the holiday sales), I'm feeling pretty damn tired. Especially after I had to move a 48'' glass tabletop from the back of the store all the way to the front, I realize "DAMN, I think I fucked my back up with all of this lifting". After asking another associate to help me take the glass out of the packaging, the store manager asks whats wrong. I explain, simply, that my back really hurts, and it doesn't feel normal. I kinda want to re-live this conversation, so you can understand my anger.
*glare* "You're back hurts?"
"Yes, do you think I'm lying?"
"How much time to do you have left"
*I look at my watch* "I have 10 minutes left"
" Then go home and stop being dead weight here"
o______________O
WHAT THE FUUCCKKK?!!?!!?!? Of course I decided to move to a different project and NOT give up my hours, but seriously, WHAT THE HELL IS HER PROBLEM? Why would a manager be so unprofessional and SUCH AN ASS?!?!?! Oh, but it gets better, there is more...
2- Friday I called off my shift as -soon- as the store opened, because I had to find my dad's hospital in Gary, and see if there was any possibility of him being accepted for an early leave (This was a stressful situation, but to summarize: my dad was taken to a hospital and held for 2 1/2 days against his own will. Fun) With all of of this on my plate, I knew that going into work wouldn't be the best thing. I didn't want to risk being late, and I knew that my emotional state wasn't stable enough to deal with stupid people. Well, luckily someone came to me and gave me some surprising news on how the store manager reacted to me calling the 4-hour shift off. "Well, she APPARENTLY is calling off so she can be with her boyfriend! I can't believe her!" <--*store manager* Yeah. You know what I'm thinking most likely. I EXPLAINED THAT MY FATHER IS IN THE HOSPITAL, AND THAT I HAD TO BE THERE!!! I CALLED YOU AS SOON AS I FUCKING KNEW SO THAT YOU WOULD BE ABLE TO REPLACE THE SHIFT WITH A REASONABLE AMOUNT OF TIME!! MY BOYFRIEND DOESN'T EVEN GET OFF OF WORK UNTIL 4PM, SO WHY WOULD I CALL OFF A 1-5 SHIFT!?!! IT MAKES ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE!!! *shudder* I have no idea what kind of grudge this bitch has against me, but its really starting to kill me. BUT WAIT! There's more!! Filler: If you don't know, my Dad was denied for Long-Term disability again, MAINLY due to a doctor believing that a 4-hour long physical examination test was not "consistent". OF COURSE IT WONT BE YOU DUMBASS, my dad's DISABLED, and barely has enough endurance to stand over the sink and do dishes for longer than 15 minutes!!! UUGGHHH.... Anyways, the point of this is that we're more than likely going to be loosing our house. I informed my store manager of this (even though I despise her and want to run a fork into her eye continuously), and asked if I could work more hours within my part-time limits (up to 30). She explained that it would not be possible, and suggested I find a second job. So be it, I understand, and therefore got an application at Bath and Body the next day to apply for a seasonal position (which omg, she seemed to get mad about. I really don't understand this bitch). NOW... onto: 3-Every Monday there is a truck to unload. I've been assigned to work this shift with two other people every week. Usually we have the driver come to the store at 5am, and we'll work for an 8 hour shift. HOWEVER, sometimes the shift changes to 8:30-5. No biggie. Well, no biggie if you KNOW. -NO ONE- told me of the shift time change. I went to the store at 5am, and waited for 20 minutes to realize that no one was coming. I then continued to stay up and call every 30 minutes to make sure I wouldn't be late to my shift. The surprising thing to me is... I called off work Friday, due to my dad being kidnapped and held in the hospital against his will... Well since I called off Friday, explaining that my father was in the hospital, you would figure that if a truck-shift changes for the SAME 3 PEOPLE... well, someone would call you, right? I'll openly admit that I could of called and checked the time, but I kinda had a lot on my plate. To top it off, I then had to explain to the store manager that I could not stay after 1:30. I had to take my Dad to all of his appointments that day, and we based that schedule on what was given to me earlier, being a 5-1:30 shift. You can imagine I kinda got some shitt for that... Someone shoot me in my face...
BUT WAAIITT! THERE IS STILL -MORE-
I am grateful that most of the people that I work with are amazing, considerate people. Otherwise, I wouldn't know all of horrible things my store manager says/does behind my back.
4- That same Monday, the manager at Bath and Body that I interviewed with called to ask about the work-reference I had listed (trust me I would of LOVED to not list Pier1 as my employer, but they needed to know if I was currently working with anyone. Grrr...). I guess Mrs. Store Manager really was really wanting to hold a grudge with me, because she refused to give information as a reference. HERES THE KICKER THOUGH! The Bath and Body manager asked the stereo-typical question, "If you could hire her again, would you?", and store manager answers with a big "NO!"
*@!$@$$&&*()&^%%#@#$#$^%$#@!#!@~!#@)!(#@##%*(&^$*
OMG.... she tells me to look for another job, and when I do, she just decides to fuck me over . Wonderful. Fucking WONDERFUL.
I'm loosing composure right now. I feel like I can't win, no matter how hard I try. I just want to give up on all of this. What the hell am I supposed to do?
1- I'm used to working an 8 hour shift, no biggy. However, on Wednesday I'm at the end of my shift, after doing a LOT of moving and construction (preparing for the holiday sales), I'm feeling pretty damn tired. Especially after I had to move a 48'' glass tabletop from the back of the store all the way to the front, I realize "DAMN, I think I fucked my back up with all of this lifting". After asking another associate to help me take the glass out of the packaging, the store manager asks whats wrong. I explain, simply, that my back really hurts, and it doesn't feel normal. I kinda want to re-live this conversation, so you can understand my anger.
*glare* "You're back hurts?"
"Yes, do you think I'm lying?"
"How much time to do you have left"
*I look at my watch* "I have 10 minutes left"
" Then go home and stop being dead weight here"
o______________O
WHAT THE FUUCCKKK?!!?!!?!? Of course I decided to move to a different project and NOT give up my hours, but seriously, WHAT THE HELL IS HER PROBLEM? Why would a manager be so unprofessional and SUCH AN ASS?!?!?! Oh, but it gets better, there is more...
2- Friday I called off my shift as -soon- as the store opened, because I had to find my dad's hospital in Gary, and see if there was any possibility of him being accepted for an early leave (This was a stressful situation, but to summarize: my dad was taken to a hospital and held for 2 1/2 days against his own will. Fun) With all of of this on my plate, I knew that going into work wouldn't be the best thing. I didn't want to risk being late, and I knew that my emotional state wasn't stable enough to deal with stupid people. Well, luckily someone came to me and gave me some surprising news on how the store manager reacted to me calling the 4-hour shift off. "Well, she APPARENTLY is calling off so she can be with her boyfriend! I can't believe her!" <--*store manager* Yeah. You know what I'm thinking most likely. I EXPLAINED THAT MY FATHER IS IN THE HOSPITAL, AND THAT I HAD TO BE THERE!!! I CALLED YOU AS SOON AS I FUCKING KNEW SO THAT YOU WOULD BE ABLE TO REPLACE THE SHIFT WITH A REASONABLE AMOUNT OF TIME!! MY BOYFRIEND DOESN'T EVEN GET OFF OF WORK UNTIL 4PM, SO WHY WOULD I CALL OFF A 1-5 SHIFT!?!! IT MAKES ABSOLUTELY NO SENSE!!! *shudder* I have no idea what kind of grudge this bitch has against me, but its really starting to kill me. BUT WAIT! There's more!! Filler: If you don't know, my Dad was denied for Long-Term disability again, MAINLY due to a doctor believing that a 4-hour long physical examination test was not "consistent". OF COURSE IT WONT BE YOU DUMBASS, my dad's DISABLED, and barely has enough endurance to stand over the sink and do dishes for longer than 15 minutes!!! UUGGHHH.... Anyways, the point of this is that we're more than likely going to be loosing our house. I informed my store manager of this (even though I despise her and want to run a fork into her eye continuously), and asked if I could work more hours within my part-time limits (up to 30). She explained that it would not be possible, and suggested I find a second job. So be it, I understand, and therefore got an application at Bath and Body the next day to apply for a seasonal position (which omg, she seemed to get mad about. I really don't understand this bitch). NOW... onto: 3-Every Monday there is a truck to unload. I've been assigned to work this shift with two other people every week. Usually we have the driver come to the store at 5am, and we'll work for an 8 hour shift. HOWEVER, sometimes the shift changes to 8:30-5. No biggie. Well, no biggie if you KNOW. -NO ONE- told me of the shift time change. I went to the store at 5am, and waited for 20 minutes to realize that no one was coming. I then continued to stay up and call every 30 minutes to make sure I wouldn't be late to my shift. The surprising thing to me is... I called off work Friday, due to my dad being kidnapped and held in the hospital against his will... Well since I called off Friday, explaining that my father was in the hospital, you would figure that if a truck-shift changes for the SAME 3 PEOPLE... well, someone would call you, right? I'll openly admit that I could of called and checked the time, but I kinda had a lot on my plate. To top it off, I then had to explain to the store manager that I could not stay after 1:30. I had to take my Dad to all of his appointments that day, and we based that schedule on what was given to me earlier, being a 5-1:30 shift. You can imagine I kinda got some shitt for that... Someone shoot me in my face...
BUT WAAIITT! THERE IS STILL -MORE-
I am grateful that most of the people that I work with are amazing, considerate people. Otherwise, I wouldn't know all of horrible things my store manager says/does behind my back.
4- That same Monday, the manager at Bath and Body that I interviewed with called to ask about the work-reference I had listed (trust me I would of LOVED to not list Pier1 as my employer, but they needed to know if I was currently working with anyone. Grrr...). I guess Mrs. Store Manager really was really wanting to hold a grudge with me, because she refused to give information as a reference. HERES THE KICKER THOUGH! The Bath and Body manager asked the stereo-typical question, "If you could hire her again, would you?", and store manager answers with a big "NO!"
*@!$@$$&&*()&^%%#@#$#$^%$#@!#!@~!#@)!(#@##%*(&^$*
OMG.... she tells me to look for another job, and when I do, she just decides to fuck me over . Wonderful. Fucking WONDERFUL.
I'm loosing composure right now. I feel like I can't win, no matter how hard I try. I just want to give up on all of this. What the hell am I supposed to do?
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Freaking Out
Today isn't a good day.
I had an appointment this morning, so the fact that I had to wake up early was enough to put me in a bad mood. Go figure more would topple down on me and the family.
1- My dad's social security provider is trying to withdraw him as a client. This makes absolutely NO SENSE, since it is BP that hired the provider, not my father.
2- The worst of the two, my sister saw our "stepfather" at work today. This is an emotional topic, because it all comes back to our "mother". I use quotations, because around 4 years ago our mother disowned both of us. Its not in fine-print, but her words that day were enough to have both sides not attempt any contact or confrontation.
I don't know what to do about this whole thing... I'm trying to be strong for my sister's sake. Its hitting her a lot harder because she actually experienced seeing him. Furthermore, the whole disownage was a lot harder on her than it was on me. Yet I'm afraid I'm going to crack because of this. There is a lot of stress on the Hall family right now. All of the prior things I mentioned, along with possibly loosing the house because we're behind on mortgage (and then all the consequences that come with that: nowhere to live, where will the cats go, what I can do financially) are combining to form a whole-lotta crap.
Can I go to Japan now? I'm sick of always being stressed out. Literally, I'm sick right now. (,_,). Dyarrr.
I had an appointment this morning, so the fact that I had to wake up early was enough to put me in a bad mood. Go figure more would topple down on me and the family.
1- My dad's social security provider is trying to withdraw him as a client. This makes absolutely NO SENSE, since it is BP that hired the provider, not my father.
2- The worst of the two, my sister saw our "stepfather" at work today. This is an emotional topic, because it all comes back to our "mother". I use quotations, because around 4 years ago our mother disowned both of us. Its not in fine-print, but her words that day were enough to have both sides not attempt any contact or confrontation.
I don't know what to do about this whole thing... I'm trying to be strong for my sister's sake. Its hitting her a lot harder because she actually experienced seeing him. Furthermore, the whole disownage was a lot harder on her than it was on me. Yet I'm afraid I'm going to crack because of this. There is a lot of stress on the Hall family right now. All of the prior things I mentioned, along with possibly loosing the house because we're behind on mortgage (and then all the consequences that come with that: nowhere to live, where will the cats go, what I can do financially) are combining to form a whole-lotta crap.
Can I go to Japan now? I'm sick of always being stressed out. Literally, I'm sick right now. (,_,). Dyarrr.
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