Freaking Out

Today isn't a good day.

I had an appointment this morning, so the fact that I had to wake up early was enough to put me in a bad mood. Go figure more would topple down on me and the family.

1- My dad's social security provider is trying to withdraw him as a client. This makes absolutely NO SENSE, since it is BP that hired the provider, not my father.

2- The worst of the two, my sister saw our "stepfather" at work today. This is an emotional topic, because it all comes back to our "mother". I use quotations, because around 4 years ago our mother disowned both of us. Its not in fine-print, but her words that day were enough to have both sides not attempt any contact or confrontation.

I don't know what to do about this whole thing... I'm trying to be strong for my sister's sake. Its hitting her a lot harder because she actually experienced seeing him. Furthermore, the whole disownage was a lot harder on her than it was on me. Yet I'm afraid I'm going to crack because of this. There is a lot of stress on the Hall family right now. All of the prior things I mentioned, along with possibly loosing the house because we're behind on mortgage (and then all the consequences that come with that: nowhere to live, where will the cats go, what I can do financially) are combining to form a whole-lotta crap.

Can I go to Japan now? I'm sick of always being stressed out. Literally, I'm sick right now. (,_,). Dyarrr.